Letting you know with signs....

Last night I went onto to the porch to sit for awhile.  When I looked up to the sky; I was in awe in the majesty of all the stars.  I felt so very small in a universe so big.  I cried tears of sadness for my Jay; wondering where my son is right now.  Is he happy - is he safe but most important of all is he finally in a peaceful place. I just need to know that he is okay.....not knowing is the hardest part of grieving for a mother.

Today I once again received salve for my wounded heart.  My friend sent me this comforting poem with the following message; "I know that it is a struggle and some days are harder than others but Jay’s greatest desire is to see his Mother happy and living her life to the fullest.  Keep moving forward as I know that you are, one step at a time.  One step at a time."