Sometimes you just have to cry....

Sometimes it helps to just spend an entire day crying. Child loss has so many layers of grief, that it's impossible to explain the pain. Tears don't take away the pain, but they do help "get out" some of the pain.


Yes, I did cry very much the last couple days.  Planting flowers at Jay's grave site, seeing my youngest sons' anguish in his face as he spoke of his big brother and the biggest hurt of all;  Jay's remote control truck being run for the first time since his death.  All triggers.....today is a better day and I am going to work in my garden.  I honor my son by not dwelling on the fact he died but instead on the joy that he lived......