Blue- Tailed Dragonfly and The Next Destination On This Journey

For the last couple days the events of that morning Jay left us has played out in my dreams and conscience mind leaving me vulnerable to tears and now my stomach hurting again (a tell-tale sign that I am regressing).  Early yesterday morning as I sat on the porch drinking my coffee, a dragonfly lighted ever gently on a branch on one of the bushes.   As many of you already know the dragonfly has such a deep meaning for me since Jay’s passing.  On the one year anniversary of his accident the poem “The Dragonfly” was read about a blue-tailed dragonfly.  The following link is a copy of the poem:

http://www.goldenretrieverforum.com/1611138-post1.html

So when I see a dragonfly - I take it as a message from Jay and God that he is all right and  he misses me too.  But this day I wasn’t consoled by this sign; I went on with my day.  Two hours later, I took a long walk and came back to find this dragonfly still dancing around on the same branch even the same leaf.  Still I didn’t pay it much attention.   Going on with my day; grocery shopping etc etc. – I sat down once again on the porch to have something to drink.  Six hours later this dragonfly is on the same branch, same leaf, doing the same crazy little dance.  Almost as if it was being silly; tail up – tail down – fly in a circle land on the same branch same leaf. 

Now this dragonfly has my attention; six hours has passed and it was still hanging around.  I grabbed my camera with the long lens to get a closer look thinking I was missing something.  Florida has so many species of dragonflies; but this one was special! As you can see in the picture she is a beautiful Blue-Tailed Dragonfly; now I am smiling and feeling peace come over me.   But here is the best part she allowed me to take 20 or 30 pictures; almost posing.  Then as if on cue, when I was done and went into the house – she flew away – I never saw her again.  Her work here was done……..

As for the next part of my journey; initially when I started writing this blog I committed to writing for a minimum of one year.   I can’t believe it but the one year mark is fast approaching on May 1^st.  The purpose of this blog was to bring healing to my heart as well as the hearts of other bereaved parents.   I shared my grief journey that began over two years ago to tell parents; it is not an easy path but there is HOPE - you can learn to live again.  God has been a navigator on this journey of grief; I am never alone.  He brings me comfort in the hardest of times.  Starting next month I will be leading the CROSSROAD OF HOPE grief program at my Church for those who have lost a spouse, child, family member or friend, and have found there are not many people who understand the deep hurt they feel.  My hope is to help these individuals face these challenges and move towards rebuilding their life by looking to the word of the Lord.

Message - 2 Corinthians 1:3-4

Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort,  who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God.